Life's been routine lately. After 2013 - what a freaking year - I shouldn't complain. Steadiness and little joys are what the majority of life is made of, and there's a lot of good in not living for the next big life-change (finishing school; moving across the country; getting engaged and married, respectively...).
But when uncertainty was the norm, stability comes as a shock to both body and soul. I resist it. I've developed the bad habit of fixating on the next event, if only to mark time and feel like my trajectory is dynamic. Tangible changes are my jam. It's spring so I'm waiting for summer. On Monday I'm thinking about weekend plans. But the problem with this is I mentally hurdle everything in front of me, just to stand in front of something more dramatic. Which makes room for the sneaky little monster of discontent to take up residence.
When we lived together, and especially now that we do not, my college roommates would keep each other updated via STDs. As in, give me some STDs, please - Super Tiny Details. Yep. When there wasn't a recognizable event marking our lives, we'd ask instead for little updates, the things we'd never hear about unless we asked the right questions.
What's new? people ask. And much as I try not to, I'll still respond with, Not much. Which is untrue and, moreover, lazy. Nothing tectonic has shifted recently, but I am reading and thinking and exploring and starting projects at work and building a life around new and old friends. I'm learning to answer this question better, giving friends peeks into the nuances of my routine because that's just what life is right now. And I'm trying to ask better, more specific questions of others.
I suppose the details are what make up most of a life, and they're worth acknowledging. These are the details I've been so glad for lately:
- Heralding summer by way of peaches and fresh corn in pasta
- A full office, a team that laughs together
- Weekend escapes to the mountains
- Runner's high after twilight post-work runs
Three cheers for little joys. Happy long weekend, friends. Enjoy the details.